i was wondering

i was wondering... what do you do when you have a problem but then you can't go to anybody because you have trust issues and you just don't want to bring anybody down. So you keep everything inside and then one day you just explode and then you loose your friend. Now this friend is not just anybody it was a friend that you have known since you were in kindegarten together, you talked every saturday on the phone, you called him about guy problems, you dated him off and on for a year, and yall break up but you still seam to have a good relationship. When you guys start working together (and its both of yours first job) then you start to like somebody else and they just keep bugging you about it and you just laugh at the jokes with everybody but then you get frustrated with him and you told him how you feel but he just doesn't seem to care about how you feel anymore. So the one day that you had enough and you blow up on him, you realize that he did not just tease you because he was just messing you you. But because he loves you ands till thinks about you and he wants to be with you but he can't have you. So hes jealous but never tell you how he feels about the situation and now it has been almost a year and you look back at your decision and  you wonder if you have made the wrong decision, but you realize that you haven't. You have just relized how it did affect your relationship with him but your made the right decision. In the end he messed up the relationship that yall had and you have now moved on and you just look and see how much he has changed over the years and how different you have become. You finally conclude that you two not being friend was the best thing to do in this certain relationship