today's chapel...

so today is Monday, May 9, 2011, today Michael Dixon gave a speech and Chris Bowen mimed and Jenee Littlejohn did a poem. It was very very good! i loved it and Michael's speach/ testomany was so good, everybody received God in them today! many people re-dedicated their lives to Him. Including me! We go through life blaming others and satin for our sins but it was all along ourselves! We know what were doing wrong and we can fix it and Michael made me realize that today. He let me know that we are like a glass of water and we are shaking and the water is getting out of us! Michael did so well today. Marcus was crying which is a blessing (everything was a blessing) but Marcus really touched me today because the way he is and the way he is looked at and how he is just so big and imtimidating and how even though he goes through so much (that we don't even know about) i guess he re-didicated his life (well i hope he did). A lot of people were crying but i was a good cry honestly it was like a cry of joy and relief that He is now back in our lives (well thats how i felt). We as a school are so not one. and we say that we are a "Christian" school but before we weren't and now i think that we are. or we are getting closer as a school to become closer to Him. I just wanted to say that God does certain things to bring so many people to Him. i right now want to just bring up the people who died at Liberty and how so many people knew them and how it effected us so much and how it has been really hard on a lot of people. to say the least they will never be forgoten. I can now say that the Lord is my Savior now and I want to live the right life and i now want to tell others about God. I am on fire for God and i want to stay this way forever and God placed certain people in our lives for a reason and He made a time for us and we need to realize that and we need to never forget that. God loves us and I want to appologize to everybody that i have talked about in the past and if i have ever hurt your feeling and how I want to be equal, to be at one. not saying that we are all going to get along but that we will just be at one and we will not look down at anybody and that we know that God wants us to be at one and how He has done so much in our lives and how we should know that and how we should realize that. I have just realized that today.
I wanna say that i love everybody know and i hope that you will all forgive me for all the mistakes that i have made and if i hurt you that you will forgive me. all the sins that i made all the lies and everying. i just hope that you will forgive me and we will now be ok!
this is a new chapter in my life and i hope that it will be a new one for your lives also.

i was wondering

i was wondering... what do you do when you have a problem but then you can't go to anybody because you have trust issues and you just don't want to bring anybody down. So you keep everything inside and then one day you just explode and then you loose your friend. Now this friend is not just anybody it was a friend that you have known since you were in kindegarten together, you talked every saturday on the phone, you called him about guy problems, you dated him off and on for a year, and yall break up but you still seam to have a good relationship. When you guys start working together (and its both of yours first job) then you start to like somebody else and they just keep bugging you about it and you just laugh at the jokes with everybody but then you get frustrated with him and you told him how you feel but he just doesn't seem to care about how you feel anymore. So the one day that you had enough and you blow up on him, you realize that he did not just tease you because he was just messing you you. But because he loves you ands till thinks about you and he wants to be with you but he can't have you. So hes jealous but never tell you how he feels about the situation and now it has been almost a year and you look back at your decision and  you wonder if you have made the wrong decision, but you realize that you haven't. You have just relized how it did affect your relationship with him but your made the right decision. In the end he messed up the relationship that yall had and you have now moved on and you just look and see how much he has changed over the years and how different you have become. You finally conclude that you two not being friend was the best thing to do in this certain relationship

so im just liven my life up and then this guy who i really like comes into my life and we are cool and all but now he's acten like a freake idiot and now im liven my lifeup again and so i think its funny how he thinks that he playn me but he really itsn't because im the one talken to him darrell cadeem devyn and shawntrell! ha! got him fooled!

trynna figure it out

trynna figure out how you are gonna say that we are together but then you won't even talk to me :(
trynna figure out how you say that you love me but then you don't tell me it when we do talk
trynna figure why you keep breaking my heart
trynna figure out the truth

what is the truth now?

it was a good day :) even though some people don't know how to shut their fricken mouth... if somebody didn't say anything about you then don't say anything about them its really simple but the more you talk the more stupid you sound... other than that the day was really good.... i love liven life and all my TRUE friends that are in it :)

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this weekend

this weekend was interesting because i heard some stuf (not gonna say anything about that) and then sunday was the BEST!! well me and tre :) we aren't together but its just really cool how you  you know somebody for 5 years and then yall were together for a little bit and then yall break up but yall are still cool but yall both know that yall still have feelings for each other and i just think that its really nice that you can still be friends after everything and now there is a possibility for something to happen again :)

tell me why...

tell me why this blackie asked me to go to the homecoming dinner with him (WE ARE ONLY FRIENDS!) today.. like three days before the dance... then it took me 2 hours to find a dress... that idiot! and then he started laughen at me when i told him that i was at the mall

haha! funni story while we was at the mall this ugly luken dude was trynna talk to my mom! lmbo! it was to funni... she had me rollen